(yeah~ this article is written by mayday's aShin~ haha...)

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今年的某一天凌晨，我在某個室內設計事務所，兩眼發昏的趕著隔天客戶要的圖，眼角瞥見我們公司法律顧問的名片，「法律專員溫某某，如果我當初念書努力一點就好了，當律師，就不用熬夜到這個田地。」我想。肚子餓得發痛，連滾帶爬到樓下街角的便利商店，上著大夜班的店長臉色發白，丹鳳眼，滿臉鬍碴，長髮披肩，店裡震耳欲聾播著U2，他的名字很好笑，很適合待在便利商店打工，念起來就是「什錦行」，天生該開雜貨店似的。

泡麵加韓式泡菜，連續三個禮拜，為了早點出頭當設計師，忍著點吧，跑電腦業務的那個小蔡，聽說為了可以多彈一點吉他，辭了業務，跑去樂器行打工了，樂器行的老闆老劉戴著一副眼鏡，精明得很，給小蔡很低的工資，小蔡摸摸他的蒜頭鼻，說「不管了！」

我獨自在沒有人的公司裡，在公司的手提音響前，想找一首屬於自己心情的歌，終究是沒有找到，面對著畫不完的施工圖，最後，又是孤單到天明…。

「時光機」完成後，我常常會想，如果在10年前的某一天，五月天的團員沒有相遇，錯過了玩音樂的人生，那麼，上面的故事就會是真的吧。好奇著我們５個人會在世界的哪一個角落，過著什麼樣的生活，有著什麼樣的夢想跟煩惱…？
很高興，終究我們是相遇在一起，終究我們搞了一個搖滾樂團，終究我們寫了一票屬於我們的歌，終究有人跟我分享許多的喜怒哀樂。過去這一年，幾乎是我人生中最多意外的一年。快樂最多，悲傷也最多的一年。多麼幸福，我們一起在風雨裡走過來。

所有知道我的名字的人呀，你們好嗎？
把我盡畢生之力的完成的音樂獻給你們，新年快樂！

２００４．０１．１９【中國時報】

“我的生命﹐由我自己主宰﹗”
(不知道為什麼﹐腦海裡一直浮現出這句話)。。。

說出這句話時﹐心中只能用一個“爽”字來形容﹐而且是“很爽”那種﹗ 哈哈。。。
(其實﹐我也不知道自己在爽什麼啦。。。 哈哈。。。)

真的希望大家都能“主宰”自己的生命﹗
不要放棄任何天馬行空的夢想。
不要失去單純可貴的年輕本色。
不要忘記最初的自己。。。
真不容易。
所以。。。
要加油喔﹗

把不開心的事都忘掉吧﹗忘掉吧﹗﹗﹗
千萬別把“青春”浪費在這些“不青春(所謂”不開心“)”的事上喔﹗
哈哈。。。在這一秒﹐快樂最重要﹗

^ 突然有感而發的欣盈 ^
18/01/04

yeahzz... 2dae gonna start work at 2pm~ then PPLE I HAF DECIDED ALREADY! my brain and my mind have finally reach a conclusion.. dat is... i gonna work till nxt tues and dats it~ yeapz... hee... gonna be abit paisehzz to leave after a wk+ and they MAY MAY MAY be some 閑言閑語.. but heck lah~ hehee... yupz then lOo will work for a longer period~ =P

haha... but so far i haf no idea wat job i'll be doin after i quit.... hahaa.... but slowly slowly lah.. 我不急著用錢嘛~ hahaa.... AND THIS TIME.... anything but WAITRESS~ hahaha.... yeapzzz....

haha i feel MUCH MUCH MUCH better after i haf decided~ yeapzz~ =P my conclusion is:

“一個人最舒服的時候﹐就是當他的腦﹐和他的心﹐達到了共識的那一剎那。。。”

yoz PPLE! i zao work 2dae... haha... work oso can zao siaz... i was plannin to go wrk tis morning... but SUDDENLY got the 'dun feel like goin' feelin.. so i called the person in charge and told them dat i was sick... "SICK" yeahz? =P

i am in a rather gd mood now.. haha... finalli can take a rest frm the hectic environment.. ACTUALLY things are really gettin better and better.. i learn some new stuffs everyday.. learn about the ingredients in each "food".. learn how to recommend them to the customers.. learn how to use their computer system which is sumhow amazin to me.. learn how to clear the tables in the shortest possible time.. haha.. yeapz.. SO things are realli gettin better although sumtimes i do kanna nag by my section-head... hahaha... (p.s. aniwae, one of the bosses of my wrkplace is the breadtalk boss.. he always come to my section to spot-check ahha... his hair alwaes very messy...)

BUT, DAT'S NOT THE PT....

the main reason for zao'in wrk 2dae is bcos i have to sort things out.. i am 'thinkin' & 'thinkin' everyday since the 1st day i started work... but there's nv ani conclusion.. haha... mainly bcos i am tiredz everyday after wrk.. not in a clear state of mind to think.. SO, 2dae is the day~

yeapz... so, back to the "things are gettin better" part... the question is.. am i happy in doin wat i am doing now? my final answer is "No!" lohz... yupz.. so... do i still wanna continue doin wat i am doin now? yesterdae a colleague told me dat some newbies quit after a day or two.. then i told her 'bout the kinokuniya thingy and she said dat i was "not-smart" to reject it... she says dat nobody will care if anyone will to quit bcos they are all used to it le... i agree with her... i think i am too concern wif how they feel 'bout me.. i am worried dat they will "label" me as sumone who "cannot take hardships","no determination" and since my colleagues there are mostly non-singaporeans, i wun like it if they criticize dat all singaporeans are like dat.. yeapz... so dats wat holdin me back... BUT actually, there's no need for me to feel like this isn't it? if they wanna say, let them say lah... at most they will "talk" for a few mins only mahz... so why do i haf to bother myself over "a few mins" yeah? hahaa... yeapz... oKay =) i gonna discuss wif *chipmunk*lOo 2molo and see how she thinks =) yeapZ =P

enJoy uR day!

yoz gd mornin.. my 3rd day of wrk yesterdae and my 4th day of wrk 2dae.. yesterdae was like this like dat loh... got alot of things to remember... not much comments bout yesterdae... haha now eatin bread for breakfast... then go bathe.... then go change.. then set off for wrk lohz... yupz... abit sianz lah....

ok lah... dat's bout it... maybe i will update again 2nitez... but MoSt prObabLy... i wun update cos i definitely gonna be real tiredz.. haha... take caRez pPle~

yoz it's my 2nd day of wrk... haha 2dae off work quite early bcos they got staff dinner at nitez... and of cOs this is none of my business bcos i am a part-time (heng ah... luckily i m a part time..) i must admit dat “身為下賤” is a rather serious word to use hahaa... but i really got abit of dat kind of feeling... okay i gonna change my term.. i feel dat my “地位比別人低很多” and my ego cannot take it lohz... BUT wat to do ritez?? penGz

BUT 2dae is definitely better than yesterdae.. yesterdae i was totally gReEnHoRn.. very stun and bLurZ about everything... 2dae slighty better.. learn to be a little bit more PRo and alert.. but i kanna nag by my section head for doing the procedures of things wrongly.. SERIOUSLY i hate sayin “對不起” “不好意思” “謝謝” so many times a day lohz!!!! AND i hate to act demure lohz heY maNz﹗﹗﹗﹗ i'm not those “姑娘姑娘”的人 lohz.. penGz... haha... BUT WAT TO DO ritez....

2dae me and lOo discussin SERIOUSLY about how long we gonna work at this place..... we told the interviewer dat we can work up to 5 - 6mths BUT we dun feel like workin dat long liaoz... NIGHTMARE.... i feel like zao'in as soon as possible... hahaa.. really... lOo sets a 4-mth target.. but i SERIOUSLY think 4 mths quite long lehz... haha... 3 mths seem quite long to me oso.. 2 mths? haha... i duNnOe... i feel paisehz to leave so soon bcos the staffs there spend a lot of saliva to teach me lohz... but i cannot imagine myself doin this waitress job everyday... 自己的幸福比較重要嘛。。。 see hOw lah... (i dun mind being 抄魷魚 by them hahaaa... REALLY!!)

lOo says kinokuniya called her for an interview as a cashier.... BUT she rejected the job.... i feel quite sadz bout it... cOs kinokuniya haf a higher pay lohz... and the workin environment is less hectic DEFINITELY and the work pace is more comfortable lohz..... haiz....

life goes on for me ... 2molo gonna be my 3rd day of work.... hOpe everything Shun Shun Li Li lohz... yupz.. now tiredz... but dun haf those kind of 怕怕的感覺了。。。ya.. then i will listen to hUi's advice to apply lotion onto my 破皮的腳 thanKs for the advice!!! hahaa... okay lah i go slackz le... must enjoy 大小姐的生活while i am at hm wauahahahaa.... nitez pPle!

*PR, wish u SHUN SHUN LI LI 2molo at ur petrol kiosk! JIA YOU!*

yoz... 2dae my first day of wrk.. wrk for 6hrs.. me and lOo workin in different 'sections' so it's still like as if i am not workin 2gether wif her.. yeapz... seriously i am very tiredz now... was stun and blurz for the whole day... then my leg 破皮.. 沖涼很痛... haha i sound quite 悲 ritez?? yeapz i am 悲... think i am not use to my life yet... new environment... new faces... new tasks... SERIOUSLY i haf nv serve anione b4... and i nv realli like to serve pple (haha.. i dun mind servin my family and friends.. but STRANGERS?)..... but I AM ACTUALLY WORKIN AS A WAITRESS WHOSE JOB IS TO SERVE... penGz... and CUM ON lohz the restaurant all day long got many many customers!!! haha... then i got the "身為下賤“ feeling... yeeapzz.. cos u alwaes haf to put the customers in top priority then u haf to put urself in last priority loh.... i was clearin the table when suddenly this thought came to my mind ---> "我也是父母生的嘛。。。" then not really lookin forward to 2molo cos it's gonna be a really super bz day... my colleagues are rather nice and humorous pple.. but it's jus the job dat turn me off and 對於 my work place and the work pace 我有怕怕的感覺。。 scared of breakin bowls.. scared of offendin customers... scared of bein too slow.. scared of doin things in the wrong way.... yupz quite stress... BUT think the main reason for all is dat 我還不習慣﹗﹗﹗think lOo feelin better than me definitely yeapzzz... dunnoe lah see how everything wrks... i gif myself a mth to adapt.. if things dun get better then i'll do wat my brain and heart tell me to do... yeapzz tAke cAre PpLe!

yOz a peaceful day for me! =) went job-hunt wif lOo yesterdae.. then we managed to find a job.. haha... gonna work as a WAITRESS at a chinese restaurant at orchard paragon.. think dat it shld be hard work ba... cos haf to stand for LONG hrs.. BUT no harm tryin it out first~ haha hope everything *shun shun li li* for me =P (hOpe i dun break anithing... cos i m a clumsy person... haha =P)

so... here i am slackin as much as possible cos it's my last day to be FREE -sighZ- haha GONNA start wrk 2molo le... BUT hu noes??? maybe i will be FIRED sOoN due to breakin too much stuffs wauhahahahaaa (am i dat lousy??!?? =P)

seriously i am quite sadz by the fact dat i gonna haf less freetime... less time spend wif family & frens... haha BUT WAT TO DO? haha

okay lah.. think i gonna end here le~ ONCE AGAIN wish me *shun shun li li* pPle!!! hahaaa

今天的心情蠻不錯的﹗

相當的輕鬆﹐

也覺得蠻爽朗的﹗

爽什麼﹖

我不知道啦﹗

tOdAy is tHe dAy maNzz! =P

心中感到很納悶。。。

有點無奈。。。

有點無聊。。。

不要聞我為什麼。。。

我懶得說。